Thoughts…

There are few times in life when you get really inspired. Maybe you listened to a song that warmed your soul, maybe you saw a speech that sparked a light inside you or you met the right person at the right time and he became part of your thoughts.
Well I don’t know what was the reason that your heart started dancing, but I know mine got alive in Uruguay. In a place called Punta del Diablo. A magical place that made me feel like I belong there.

Like it was my home. Home. What a wonderful meaning , somewhere that you belong and you create memories. But most of all, it was about the people I met. One day while having breakfast I met an Argentinian who was telling me about the time he was living in South Africa, a place he calls home. Out of the sudden I was travelling there, through his words I was on a safari in the wild and picturing all the landscapes there. It was an unbelievable moment where I felt nostalgic for a place I have never visited.

In the afternoon I met a Luxembourgish girl(they are expired species) and she was describing her life in Luxembourg, how limited it is and it resonated strongly familiar with what I had experienced while living there for almost 2 years. Tortured years, I felt like I was getting older faster. Trapped in a cold city that killed my spirit. I’m glad though that I experienced it because now I know what I don’t like and my limits.

I was laying in a hammock , which was the most comfortable place on earth at that time, listening at the waves of the ocean and birds singing. Oh, how natures puts the canvas to our lives. I was happy and fulfilled. Free! With no identity, no past, no future, only the present moment. I was grasping the moment at its best. And I was writing…something I had never done before. A new hobby that became an essence to my existence.

A new aspect of myself that I had no clue exists. It made me feel alive and something to look forward to everyday. Writing about the people I met, the experiences I had and the feelings I was having through the past months.
A unique clarity of who I am and who I’m becoming.

I’m often thinking about how beautifully fragile, charmingly chaotic human beings we are.
We need a purpose to feel alive and a goal to chase for.
I once watched a speech who said the only person I’m chasing for is my future self , this is the person I’m looking up to. And it clicked perfectly with how I am feeling now.
So future self, I still have a long way to go to reach you…wait for me!